Confession #7 - The Demons Within...

Wow... It's been awhile since I've confessed.

I haven't had the need to.  Love and sex have been amazing with the Lady.  Not saying things are bad at the moment...just lusty.

I don't understand how a well known, respectful, church going and charitable guy can have this dark animal lingering inside, controlling my thoughts.

So, I come here to confess...

Tonight it begins like this: in search of the parTy

You can figure out what kind of responses came my way.  The most intriguing from: leangymnast@yahoo.com

He writes:

-I'm in Hollywood
and gotta say that's the most compelling ad
i've ever seen on this site, but don't know if
i should be reading between the lines or just
take it literally
don't have aloT but it's kickass so Talk to me

I'm 5' 9" 145 lean, muscular, vers/top, artist
workin late renovating my studio in the Hollywood ghetto.

Send whatever u want to send i guess

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-although these are real internet pics - these are not his actual pics-

I reply:

Thanks...but here it is..in all honesty...
I love to get freaky...but it's all about business... i got shit to get done and not enough hours in the day... i got cash... and that's it...not a cop...just a dude in love with his girl trying to get taxes and work done...

if ya can help out cool...

if not...

good luck...

have fun...

and be safe...

http://deviant7-confessions.blogspot.com/

it's my confession... i created it...

and this is how it goes...

wow,,
u wanna give me a call?
xxx-xxx-xxxx

Anywayz, i'm an artist here, currently renovating my studio here in the
Hollywood ghetto, and i gotta say your Blog is really like art imitating life,,,,
or is it the other way around?? either way, you got my attention.

I'm not the type of person that would make someone compromise their values on
any level so if u wanna come by, get some to keep ya going cool,, if u wanna
hang,, that's cool,, especially if that's yur bod in the pic on your ad.

You said jump and i asked how high? so hit me back if u want.


Thanks...that is my bod in the pic...no lies here...don't have time... I happened to txt an old buddy of mine..actually...the guy who introduced to me the demons within...( my next blog...working on it now..) after a long break just happened to get hooked up an hour before i txt'd him - crazy how the world works...

I do appreciate the words on my confessions...and that is my intention...experiencing life as art....

how's the night going... did ya score... cause i have to admit... I'm awake.

Well,, let me put it this way,, Most of the guys in CyberHomoWorld
are Narcissistic individuals with way too much self esteem and afraid
of their own shadows. Not that I'm becoming bitter or jaded mind you,
but as a seeker of truth, i'm just stating the facts,, i wonder if my ex-wife
will consider taking me back. hmmm.. oh well HA!

and NO i didn't score,, up high and friggin horny as fuck,,, and you?

Well I scored my wake-up call...and that's what I was looking for... yeah...I'm horny as fuck...on a normal night I would go to my room and fuck, make passionate love to my fiance...but it's not a normal night...she got the flu and his been in bed the past 3 days...the first time she's been really sick in our relationship...usually were fuckin' every day...because of work and responsibilities we were already a couple days behind then she got sick... it's been almost a week... I know- I'm spoiled...but the mind wanders ya know...

so i came to confess...

Hey,,
so you're a very interesting cat and i'm up, and i guess this
would be a good time to go into my studio and make some new art, but would
be up for hangin if u wanna come over, but u gotta clarify
the boundaries so i don't go steppin where i shouldn't or is that the idea?
and hey,, yes i was married of 7 years,, just to complicate the story a bit

I love that it was 7 years... powerful # - I hope you two remain in each other's lives.

In regards to your offer...Sounds amazing... I love to be around artists while they create... I feel like I am a part of time that will always be remembered.

as tempting as it may sound... I have my responsibilities to attend to....

maybe one-day a master piece will be created...

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And so here I am...Playing with the demons within.